Emotional Purges Pt. 1
I’m getting exhausted just thinking about emotions. Confronting them has never come easy to me and it is always an Act of Congress to get me to express them. Pride, independence, and emotional immaturity (as a psychiatrist so eloquently put it) made emotions a form of kryptonite for me.
Growing up in a family where we did not discuss emotionally difficult situations often crippled my ability to connect with people later in life. When my young adult relationships suffered because those people thought my lack of emotional expression meant a lack of concern in general, I sought to do something about it. I turned to writing.
Purging my feelings through writing did not necessarily turn me into a self-expressing guru but, it gave me the opportunity to think deeply about the root of these emotions without judgment. It became easier for me articulate how I felt as well.
Slowly, I begin to be more expressive about my emotions which is still not easy. There is a level of vulnerably that is required. And it takes courage to be vulnerable. The more I try, the more I see that I’m free of other’s opinions, and really find another peace in the truth of who I am.
There are still days when I don’t know why I feel the way I feel and that is okay. It helps to get away, reflect, and clear my head. I acknowledge my growth and I appreciate the journey I have been on. I also know there’s still a ways to go.
But now, these feelings don’t stall me like once before. I actively try to get them all out, especially purging the feelings that don’t come from a good place or evoke negative thoughts.
Protect your energy. Purge you emotions. Move on to a better place.
I encourage you to write more, laugh more, mediate more, speak more. If there are other helpful, healthy ways you purge your emotions leave a comment below and/or share with a friend.
Always Amanda
"There is only one thing I hate more than lying: skim milk. Which is water lying about being milk." -Ron Swanson
8 Comments
dani
I can totally relate to this. In one of the recent books I’ve read, a family on welfare spoke about 600 words a day to their kids. While a middle class family about 1200 and for upper class, about 1600 words. Now I’m wondering how much words did I miss growing up while both my parents were away to earn a living. This explains how hard it is for me to name every emotion I have. Reading is now helping and writing especially. I totally feel you. I could have written this one. Keep writing girl! =)
Always Amanda
Yes, you are so right. The dynamics of socio-economical living adds a whole new layer to this discussion. Thank you for your insight!
Shannon Rhymer
It is important to purge the negative emotions. Listening to upbeat positive music helps bring my vibration up along with humor so that I don’t stay in that negative space. Thanks for sharing!
Always Amanda
Love it, Shannon! I like to listen to music, too. Sometimes it describes my moods better than I can.
Karie
My family as well didn’t really do emotions well. I learned to keep a lot in and recently now that my kids are grown and gone I am feeling a few things and it’s weird to me. I am trying to learn to express my self and allow my self to feel. It is very uncomfortable but I know it is healthy.
Always Amanda
Thanks for being so open with that Karie. I think its a common misconception that when we grow up and have our on family, it’ll just come to us how to talk to the people we love most. And often time that’s when we need to do the most work.
Jennifer Rodriguez
I can relate so much! I struggle with emotions (a lot) and writting about them (or writting in general) helps me clarify my thoughts which then clarifies my emotions. This awareness is what actually allows me to express better my emotions. 🙂
Thank you for sharing!!
Always Amanda
Thanks you, Jennifer!